<3 dangerously in LOVE

2007-10-09T23:15:00.000+08:00

I have wayyy too many updated photos but I can't possibly upload each and every single one of them.

Attachment is over and I'm starting school in a week's time. My final lap!

I will just say life hasn't been good. Everything hasn't been going on well for me.

2007-05-09T11:13:00.000+08:00

i flunked my final theory.
and no idea when is the next slot scheduled?
most probably it's going to be another month of waiting.

URGH!

i was so not in the mood for the whole of yesterday.
the only thing that brightens up the day a little is
meeting up with kq at night.

pfft,
~~fucken~~

2007-05-07T11:37:00.000+08:00

i just deleted the whole chunk of words from my last entry.

i guess all these are the way of life.
i have to learn to accept.

alright.

enough whinings.

interim presentation up soon.
i can just die from it.

my back had been aching since yesterday.
ohhh pfft!

2007-04-05T15:43:00.000+08:00

just realised i have not been updating for a month.
i was so tied up with my attachment stuffs and i hardly have to time.
the moment i reached home, i'll dropped dead on my bed and wake up the next day for work again.
boring life, i say.
but work is rather fine.
i'm glad to be able to work with the people here, but of course, not for some.

it's dear's 27th tomorrow!
hope he likes the LV key pouch i gave.
=)

2007-02-26T23:18:00.000+08:00

still traumatized over what happened on saturday that i can hardly have a night of good sleep.
i know there's nothing i can do to erase that but it's really haunting me so bad.
don't know what to do...

i'm sorry bb.
i'm sorry bb.
i'm sorry bb.
i'm sorry bb.
i'm sorry bb.
i'm sorry bb.
i'm sorry bb.
i'm sorry bb.
i'm sorry bb.
i'm sorry bb.
i'm sorry bb.

really really sorry.

:(

i know it's no point but i really don't know what to say besides this.

2007-02-25T11:00:00.000+08:00

last night was disastrous.
all i know was both of kept downing cups after cups and soon after, she started going crazy while those dizzy spells hit me.
had a night of heart-to-heart talks but i'm still feeling bad.

went off separately at 12 and i don't really wish to mention anything that happened next.
sorry i just didn't want to be reminded of what happened.
but thank god i was back home safely again...

2007-02-21T13:14:00.000+08:00

i realised i'd been leaving my blogger to rot these days.
i'm just too lazy.
anyway,
cny is boring shit.
the usual routine of lazing & gaming around day and night and night and day.

i have not done any spring cleaning.
my wardrobe looks like it's been flipped upside down.
i've so many clothes that i haven't been wearing.
i wanna clear them all so i can make way for new pieces but have no idea how to go about doing it.
everything's so in a mess.

i don't really know what to blog about so i guess pictures do the talking.

Very random

my hair looks like a stack of hay and i really don't know what to do with it.
i don't like it!

movie that i've caught last week.
the typical hk movie.
and zhang jing chu is really pretty!

2007-02-12T23:12:00.000+08:00

one down and 2 more to go.
today's paper was a killer.
and i was just too unlucky to suffer insomnia the day before my papers.
i don't know why but i just had problems falling asleep.
i felt something bugging me but i can't describe what is it?
maybe i just don't feel good.

cny no longer excites me anymore.
i'm gonna be away for a few days.

miss me.
miss dar.

2007-02-06T23:36:00.000+08:00

had my interview for my IAP at Panasonic at 8.45am.
woke up damn early and i'm really zonked out by now.

feeling so tired + moody.

think he may be away with his friends in april.
no idea how long he will be away but i bet it's at least for a week.
i really didn't like that idea but he said he don't wanna spend his birthday in sg.
i don't know...
but i just don't like it.

i don't like it when people make decisions without seeking my views, considering my feelings, and thinking about me.

but anyway,
i think he's quite firm on going.
and i don't think no amount of arguing can stop him from going.

oh, fuck it!

and damnit!
exams are in less than a weeks time.
i guess most likely i will be up to my neck till august.
attachment mainly.
frankly i have no idea why i chose Panasonic and their office is in The Concourse which is so damn inaccessible.
but i think there's no choice now unless they didn't choose me from the interview.

urghfffff
feeling so frustrated!

2007-01-17T22:33:00.000+08:00

i don't know what's the big fuck now again.
all i know was things are really not going on good for these few days.
and i don't feel good too!

spent like nobody's business yesterday.
bought 2 tops from future state and a tube from miss selfridge.
i think i spend more than 100 bucks in just 2 days.
and i totally forgot that i haven't settle my bill but i'm like so broke now.

Geexxx

2007-01-14T09:31:00.000+08:00

i hate to start a new day in this manner, especially when its a sunday.
indeed all the trouble i brought upon myself.
like what the fuck,
but i swear its a killer.

had been feeling moody since yesterday.
i felt something wrong but i don't know what is it.
paranoid?
maybe.

let the pictures do the talking cos' i'm so not in the mood for a proper entry.
assignments piling up like nobody's business but i'm really not in the mood for it.

POM paper. i dreads it.

inventory management.

i don't know what i'm thinking.

shopping spree last tuesday.

enen- fireworks on NYE at marina south.

forcing that smile on me.

2007-01-07T21:38:00.000+08:00

long time since my last update.
the connection speed is still painfully slowwwww.
which means the lack of photos because i can't upload them!

anyway,
it's a start of a new year and hopefully it will be a good year ahead.
this year is gonna be a new start... the new beginning.
with my IAP starting most prolly in march,
and hopefully everything in school progress smoothly and i can graduate by 2008!
(:

self-proclaimed holiday on this coming tuesday.
collecting my pay cheque and hitting the town with kq.
i will get that coach swing bag!
(:
can't wait!

by the way,
i'd received my common test results.

qla - 92
opcs - 77
pom - 63
imgt - 82

i finally see some solid results from my studies.
(:

2006-12-29T13:09:00.000+08:00

it took me 1973626498 minutes just to load this single page.
urghfffff

work later, tomorrow and the day after.
double URGHFFFFF.

the only good news that brighten up my day is
- this is the last week of work.
- new year's countdown on sunday!

but then again,
who knows i might be spending the night at home like that on x'mas eve?

cannot possibly be going dragonfly again?
and dear might not want to go too.

urghfffff
how?!

2006-12-27T01:29:00.000+08:00

no matter how far i kept myself away from those stuffs,
i lit up another stick yet again today.

heavy rain,
puffy eyes,
splitting headache.

FUCK.

not a good day.

2006-12-25T00:13:00.000+08:00

it's x'mas and here i am, blogging away.
it's the first time and it's hella boring!
urghfffff
damned.
forget it.

yesterday was first day of work.
it's fucking horrible i say.
went to dragonfly after work at 10.
just as i expected,
it's so packed by the time i reached there.
hopped over to power house for awhile and it's really nice.
i like!
(:

today was the second day of work.
urghfffff
bloody tired from all the walking around.
knocked off at 10 and fuck,
i don't know where i can go with all the road blocks around town area.
sigh.
i was so wanting to go out...
):

forget it, forget it.

dragonfly

x'mas tree in mono.
very nice!

2006-12-23T00:00:00.000+08:00

Happy 8th-Month!

headed town yesterday and missed the mango sale yet again cos' we were both drenched and that really spoilt the mood for a perfect shopping spree.

went bugis in the afternoon.
bought a black skinny pants from m)phosis.
it was so the correct one that i'm looking for!
and it's only costing me 52bucks!
LOL
i'm happy happy!

but...

2 tunic tops from forever21 = $71 - $31 = $40 ($31 for the gift vouchers)
A|X top = $63
m)phosis pants = $52

total damage within 2 days = $155

omg.

my heavily made-up eyes.

2006-12-20T23:35:00.000+08:00

it's been raining for 2 consecutive days and finally i see the sun today.
headed town with sis yesterday.
it was raining like fcuk everywhere so the furthest we went was taka.
bought 2 tunic tops from forever21 and a top from A|X for dear.
120 bucks gone just like that.
but anyway,
i'll be working for 2 consecutive weeks starting from this friday.
didn't want to work initially.
but i guess i sorta gave in at the thought of the extra income.
and maybe then i can get my long awaited coach swing bag!
:)

forever21

my black hair!
i like!

2006-12-18T00:30:00.000+08:00

missed town-ing yesterday and going tomorrow instead.
there's so many sales going on everywhere.
and it's very tempting can?!
so irresistable.
everywhere is sales, SALES and more S-A-L-E-S!

i'm dying my hair again.
this time round it's black.
hopefully it makes my split ends less visible.

(:

2006-12-16T00:25:00.000+08:00

had my last paper today and it spells holidays for me!
like finally...
didn't sleep well for like a week.
but hope my efforts paid off in the end.
i want some bonus on my progress card!

hmm,
heading town tomorrow with dear.
finally i can do some shopping already.
but anyway,
holidays don't excite me anymore.
in fact it's kind of boring.
so how?
has anyone have got any jobs on hand?
i'm thinking if i should save up to get that Coach swing bag.
love it can?!

should i?
if i get a job within these 2 weeks,
i will get the bag.
LOL

my new love.
anna sui dolly girl.

2006-12-11T22:30:00.000+08:00

will be having my first paper tomorrow.
and i've yet to hit the books.
urghfffff,
i'm feeling lazy.

hmm,
i actually didn't have the intention to blog tonight.
but i suddenly got some mixed feelings in me when i stumbled someone's blog.
so i got to realise that this guy-friend of mine is currently going through some legal case.
i kept having flashbacks in my mind while reading those entries.
and i don't know why but i can't hide that i missed him in some way or another.
as a friend, i really do.
i don't know the reason of him stop calling me suddenly.
the last call i got from him was more than 6 months ago.
i missed how he always cheer me up.
i missed how he always come to keep me company.
from his workplace at geylang, all the way to jurong he came, walked me home at night, and finally back to his home at yishun.
the same routine almost everyday.
i missed, so much that i can't stop my eyes from going watery.

every now and then i still hope for his call but i don't think i will get any anymore.
just what are the reasons for what he did...
i don't know why...

2006-12-09T00:17:00.000+08:00

some time since my last entry.
anyway,
i'm too lazy for the little details.
so the photos will do everything.

common tests coming right up very soon!
one more week and i'm off for holidays.
more shopping sprees coming up.
my forever21 gift cards are collecting dust in the drawer.
and dear was suggesting a very short genting trip this x'mas eve.
hmmm,
guess we'll see how things go by then.
was so deprived of sleep for so many days!
so i'm going to bed as soon as i finish typing this...
=)

2006-11-28T00:49:00.000+08:00

it's getting late but somehow,
i can't seems to convince myself to go to bed.
there's too much on my head and thou' there are stuffs that i wanna keep private,
i have to say it's suffocating me.

things did not improve.
in fact, it's seems worse than ever.

i don't know what's wrong with him.
he wouldn't tell me when i asked.
he said ignorance is bliss.
i thought otherwise.
all he's doing was to left me alone to keep my thoughts wandering.
i can't stop those negative thoughts from flowing into me.
it's killing me totally but he can't seems to understand.

just what is it that's on his mind?

things happened so sudden that i don't even have the time to think about what's going on.
and i hope my blues will go away soon.

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photos up!

random day in class with cindy.

yiling.

xuan and yiling.

grace, me & cindy.

me, cindy & yiling.

last but not least,
the favourite among all.
taken with xuan's new T50.
i love!
((:

2006-11-26T22:40:00.000+08:00

these few days haven't been good.
i'm so so so darn disappointed.
countless apologies,
empty promises...

whatever.

and damn this rainy season!
i rushed for fuck on friday to school and was all drenched from head to toe!
yah yah,
rain rain go away please!

urghfffff
common tests coming up very soon.
i'm so not prepared yet!

urghfffff
haven't been going shopping for so long.
i wanna hit town soon!
and did i mention i miss the adidas sale at expo?!
and wtf,
their jackets are going at 60 bucks!
so hella cheap can...
but yeah,
i missed it.
so sad.

ohhhhh yah,
those black skinny jeans are in the trend again!
and the jelly shoes are so going to match the jeans!
anybody knows where can i get hold of them?
i can't seems to find it anywhere...
tell me tell me!
where can i get them?
and i need new bags.
someone intro me some nice place to shop!
=)

random pic during some rubbish seminar.

so deprived of sleep!

p/s: stop asking me to dragonfly!
cos' it's so highly addictive!
but i'm so yearninig for their membership can...
it's only 188 bucks.
LOL
so tempted!

2006-11-23T00:38:00.000+08:00

i deleted my previous post.
sounds too harsh with my tone.
my apologies.
=)

yeah,
it's our 7th month together!
but everything just seems so wrong today.

headed town but it was raining like fuck and we couldn't get anywhere.
walked around fep but i see nothing that i fancy.
and because it was raining,
the furthest we went was galleria.
damn fucking sickening i tell you.
the weather is getting irritating!
i was wanting to shop so much and because of the rain, my mood was totally ruined.

FUCK-EN.

and now i've got to rush for my report that is due tomorrow!
everything is so fucked up.
my connection keeps disconnecting itself.
the links not working.
the information not there.
everything is not correct!

urghffffff
whathefuck whathefuck whathefuck

2006-11-11T13:02:00.000+08:00

random days

i was trying to imitate the penguin in the Happy Feet poster.
LOL

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11 November 2006, Friday

was suppose to be at Riverwalk for an interview but decided to miss it due to some personal reason plus, it was raining real heavy in the evening.
yup,
met up with kq at dhoby gauht and headed bugis next.
spent so much time in m)phosis cos' i couldn't decide if i should get that slip-ons.
but in the end i still did not get it.
LOL
walked around the village and finally left at 4.30 and headed next to raffles to look for joyce.
waited for hell time before she knocked off and went to vivocity.
wanted to hit town but it was still raining so... yeah.
shopped around vivocity and was dead tired can.
wanted to get something from Forever 21 cos' of the gift vouchers but didn't really see anything nice.
went m)phosis again and was still procastinating.
and so... i made up my mind and got that pair of slip-ons and it's in gold!
LOL
went home at around 10 and i was totally worn out...

fun at toys'r'us !

enjoying~ !

2006-11-05T13:51:00.000+08:00

BACKTRACK *

31 October 2006, Tuesday

met up with kq and her bf at tiong bahru and had dinner at sakae sushi.

2 November 2006, Thursday

cam-whoring during break-times!

grace, yiling, mandy, cindy & me!

grace, me & yiling!

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quarrelled with him yet again.
i'm sorry.
maybe i carried things too far this time.

3 November 2006, Friday

headed Bugis with kq.
bought a dress from the village at 23 bucks!
so cheap can.
was feeling damn tired & moodless because of the quarrel and headed home at 6+.

4 November 2006, Saturday

yesterday was a BLAST !
went jp for awhile to meet up with joyce and headed home to get changed before heading to Dragonfly.
it was alcohol and alcohol and MORE alcohol for the night.
had too much to drink and the next thing i know was to find myself seeing stars and by that time the whole place was so hella packed!
was damn tired when i reached home so just went to bed without even removing my make-up.
anyhows,
i just couldn't sleep well for the whole night.
he's still not taking my calls...

when we are still sober.

tipsy tipsy tipsy~

had so much fun and definitely enjoyed to the fullest!

2006-10-30T23:34:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling damn tired and sleepy and lazy now but i thought i might as well update about my birthday since i got the time now.
alright,
i didn't really celebrate much.
went party world on saturday and had dinner with my family together with dear on sunday.
hmm,
many thanks to my friends for their greetings.
be it through smses, phone calls, msn, friendster, face-to-face, whatever, really thank you!
heart you guys many many!
thanks so much to my classmates for the fruity cake that's so effin' nice.
thanks yiling, xuan & chroy for your little pressie.
i swear it was wonderful with you guys!

party world on saturday.

in school today.

random days in school.

alright,
that's all.
=)

happy birthday to myself!

2006-10-25T23:53:00.000+08:00

me & yiling during our LCOM lecture.
LOL
i swear i'm really going to work hard for this semester and i know i can do it!

caught the prestige at ps yesterday with dear.
the only thing i don't really like about the show is its too drag-gy.
shopped around ps before heading home.
bought 2 tops for only 30 bucks!
=)

2006-10-22T22:43:00.000+08:00

wow,
its the 22nd of the month again.
see how time flies?
we've been together for 6 months just in a blink of an eye.
basically,
we just rot our weekend away probably because both of us are too tired to go anywhere.
its only the first week of the semester and i've been in school for the whole 7 days!
yeah yeah,
thanks to the IS module that my weekend is gone.
and damn,
i'm really really lacking of sleep.
stayed up to 2+am last night just to wait for dear because he jogged all the way from his house to my house.
and he's staying like, in jurong east.
lol

oh,
6 more days to my 18th birthday!
i'm not really excited about it though and don't really know where should i celebrate.
but i'll most probably be going party world again, just like my previous birthday.
and maybe dinner with dear & my darling sisters?
well,
we will see.
=)

2006-10-20T00:40:00.000+08:00

i thought i might as well blog now that i got the time.
this whole week's been school and more school.
i'm seriously lacking of sleep.
but thank god lesson is at 3pm tomorrow.
i'm still considering to go or not to.

my dotties top that i love!

that's me in eroy's cap with yiling.

the reason why school has been fun.

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went vivocity again to catch you, me & dupree.
it didn't turn out to be as nice as i thought it would be.
in fact some parts are kinda boring.
i was disappointed.

did i mention i've got my new specs?
and its white!
i love!

2006-10-15T01:31:00.000+08:00

last few days were spent at dear's house slacking away.
school is starting this coming monday & i'm so happy about it!

i so regretted cutting my hair now.
but i feel i like this halr color better!
=)

anyway,
went vivocity with dear today.
intended to catch a movie there but the timing is so not right.
so we ended up walking around the whole shopping centre and left there empty-handed!
sigh.
went west coast in the late evening and yeah, something cropped up in the end and i was so pissed can.
i seriously hate it when such things happen.
so i ended up going home alone and that place is darn quiet at night so imagine me wandering on the streets alone cos' i do not know where the hell the main road is and i can't find a fucking cab to bring me home!
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damn, fuck it.

i like my new manicure and i fucking wish i can kill him with my killer nails cos' he is making me so hella angry!

2006-10-11T23:19:00.000+08:00

i don't know since when everything starts to change and we seems so drifted apart.
it's been a week and there's still no improvement.
i'm getting tired.

teach me what to do...

2006-10-10T10:31:00.000+08:00

backtrack and let the pictures do the talking.

6 October 2006

finally my n73!
but yeah, quarrelled with him for dont-know-what-fuck reason.
met up with kq to shop at bugis.
retail therapy is always the best solution to foul moods.
bought 2 tops from the village and yeah, i love it!
and we headed to katong next to get some stuffs done.

on the cab off to katong and while slacking there.
cabbed back to jurong after that and goddamnit, i dont wish to mention further details.

7 October 2006

met up with amanda, intended to have another manicure but decided to miss it in the end.
it's so tempting!
cabbed to his house in the late evening only to find out he has left the house already.
that day was so much like a mental & physical torture for me.
i was like, so helpless.
sighhhh.

8 October 2006

met up with eroy together with his gf and brother.
slacked at coffeebean like our usual habit.
up to kpool next and off i went to meet dear.
oh yah, did i mention eroy got me a strawberry lighter?!
it's so pretty, pretty!
and i bought him a portable ashtray but had forgetten to pass it to him.

probably the last time i'm taking photos with my samsung.

9 October 2006

was at his house waiting for him to finish his mahjong and hell, i waited for like 3 darn hours.
all he did was got me damn pissed off and disappointed with him.
fuck it.

yeah, new haircut + hair color.
it's very dark purple+red.
i dont know why it doesn't shows the shades of purplish red in the pic.
he said it's a waste of money cos' it looks like charcoal black, but fuck, who cares when i love it?

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hmm,
i uploaded some pics from my samsung to my laptop.
and i have some pics taken really long ago.
here we go,

joyce's birthday @ 2005, dinner at boat quay with darling sisters.

my birthday @ 2005, at partyworld clementi.

my birthday @ 2005, with didi at partyworld clementi.

@ 2005, me & siong at billard center.

@ 2005, me & junhan at billard center.

@ 2005, meet my super exboyfriend!
LOL
i so heart him cos' he totally understands me inside out and outside in.
my best male mate.

@ cny 2006.
my pink highlights fading off and dirty-yellow nails.

last tuesday off to bugis to collect my pay cheque.

2006-10-08T01:20:00.000+08:00

my baby boy is no longer the one he used to be.
he's breaking my heart so bad.

sighhhhh
i wanna cry.

2006-10-02T00:05:00.000+08:00

my backache is so going to kill me,
i can hardly even bend!
and like that's not enough, i'm having a sore throat as well.
that kfc cheezito breakfast is definitely not going to make my throat feel better.
big sigh.

just look at how much weight i have to shed.
big big sigh.

hmm,
i'm going for a new haircut & hair colour next week.
so, should i go for short fringes now, tell me?
i'll probably be colouring my hair dark purple.
and who says purple is gay?
=)

oyeah,
i'm like finally going to abandon my current samsung after being with me for 1 and a quarter years.
lol
thanks dear!

i'm awaiting this!

2006-09-30T23:50:00.000+08:00

BACKTRACK *

25 to 27 September 2006

basically it's all about working, meeting dear & sleeping.
of course, not forgetting my manicure that i so loves.
=)

28 September 2006

marks my last day in that damned office.
goodbye to the fat-ass who thinks she's 'oh-so-pretty'.
goodbye to the 'forever-bullied-by-others' wilson.
goodbye.

goodbye to the office of 'everyday-free-supply-of milo'.

lol
enjoyed working there with amanda, seriously do.
because i swear we had countless fun.
and not forgetting shopping at the village during lunch break.

but it seems those damned shitasses do not appreciate us, so that's just too bad!

29 September 2006

was supposedly my last day in the office, but decided to skip it.
dear went crazy shopping with me at town.
he's like so especially nice because he never like shopping with me but actually accompanied me to walked the whole of orchard and all the way to plaza singapura just for that pair of m)phosis thongs that i've been eyeing for.
and i was really lucky to have that last piece at plaza singapura.
i was so hell happy!
plus the fact that he's the one who paid for all my stuffs.
lol
so, i bought a pair of thongs and a small bag from m)phosis.
bought a small ashtray and it's like so cute can?
hmm,
reach his place at around 8 and we were both dead tired.

30 September 2006

caught rob-b-hood and the show was really, really nice!
that baby boy is just too cute!

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was suppose to go to the chinese garden tonight.
but hell, he have something on and yeah, he spoilt everything.
left to meet amanda at jp, and guess what?
we did manicure again.
the last session was like less than a week ago.
lol

i got bored while waiting for my nails to dry up so i can wash up.
and i heart the pic where i'm pouting.
lol

p.s.: i'm feeling darn hungry and i skipped dinner all because he made me so angry that i don't even have to mood to have anything!

and yeah,
not forgetting it's children's day!
heehee

2006-09-26T22:08:00.000+08:00

why do i feel irritated so easily nowadays?
or am i just being pms-sy?
but i cannot deny sometimes he's really getting on my nerves.
was it because both of us always have different ways of handling stuffs?
why is he constantly doing things that i'm against of?

and after what happened yesterday,
i can't be sure of whether this is the kind of life that i want.
i can't...

but he's still not aware of all these...
sigh.

2006-09-24T22:19:00.000+08:00

tomorrow is another day of work again.
and the time table for next sememster is out.
i hope they don't make much changes to it cause' it suits me perfectly.

monday- 9am to 5pm
tuesday - IS
wednesday- 8am-3pm & 10am-3pm (on alternate weeks)
thursday- 10am-4pm
friday- 12pm-5pm

at least only 1 day of 8am lesson.
i swear to work hard!

hmm,

caught The Haunted Apartments yesterday with dear.
it seems a little boring in the beginning but overall, it was still not too bad.

2006-09-22T23:19:00.000+08:00

went to the zoo this morning and crazy shopping after that.
it was fun and more fun at the zoo.
but the only thing to spoil the day is the sudden rain in the afternoon.
hmm,
lunched at yishun and headed to bugis.
LOL
like i can't stand one day not going there.
bought a white top from bugis street and another top from m)phosis.
headed jp next and bought another top there.

off to zoo!

random white top from bugis street.

off-shoulder top from m)phosis.

black top from red 2.

lol, while waiting for the rain to stop.

btw, it's our 5th months together today!

loves baby!

2006-09-21T23:05:00.000+08:00

like finally i got the time for updates.
for the past 2 weeks i was either working, spending time at dear's or sleeping.
i slept like hell 8 hours everyday, wake up, get prepared and off to work.
hmm,
work was obviously full of shit with amanda around in the office.
LOL
i think we spent most of our time discussing about where to shop and laughing at one of the IT guy over there.
basically nothing to rant about work except the pay.
sigh.
okay, tomorrow shall be self-holiday for myself & dear.
we are planning for the zoo and shopping in the afternoon.

TEEHEEHEE!

i'm going to ring dear and then off to bed as soon as i finish this sentence!

2006-09-09T23:22:00.000+08:00

i almost went crazy trying to resize & upload each and every one of the photos we took in genting.
there are just tonnes of them and yup, here goes!

day 1

buffet dinner

i heart this.

day 2

dear went off to the casino so me & this bitch were cam-whoring away in the middle of the night.

day 3

went to Ripley's Believe it Or Not! exhibition.
and it was darn interesting.

his favourite.

this fucking thing is damn heavy.

i swear he got fucking lousy photography skills. lol

below are photos taken at the mushroom farm.

ok, finally i've got all the photos up.
somehow, i teared while looking through the photos.
i miss dear.

anyway, a list of what i bought from genting:
1) 2 bottoms
2) 1 Levi's jeans- they sell it hell lots cheaper there.
3) 1 bag made of cane
4) 1 black top
5) a pair of earrings

total damage = SGD207 in 4 days.
but anyway, the trip was fun & more fun!

07 September 2006

went for the interview at the office near Bugis.
all went on smoothly and i'm starting work on this coming monday!

08 September 2006

sick, down with fever.
was at home for the whole day.

09 September 2006

brought Enen out again.
she's duper cute and i heart heart her!

totally shagged, without make-up.

heart that pair of earrings.

tobacco break at coffee bean.

simply too adorable isn't she?
hmm,
bought another bottom from Pepperplus.
shall wear it to work on monday.
and yeah, i've got a few vouchers from Party World.
i wanna sing till i drop!
lol
thought my fever had gone down already but it just got worst when i reached home just now.
i'm perspiring like fuck now and i'm feeling damn uncomfortable.
sigh.

he hasn't called yet.
when will all these stop?

2006-09-08T23:52:00.000+08:00

went to the doctor with him this afternoon and we had yet again, another quarrel.
i was so disappointed, goddarn disappointed with him.
why is it wrong to just want his company at that point of time?
all i wanted was him to care more yet he thought his friends are his priority.
i was alone at home for the damn afternoon.
felt nauseous, giddy, hungry and all but there's just no-one at home.
so why is it wrong with me wanting him to keep me company?
why is happiness always so short-lived?
i'm missing the days we spent at genting together when he's so sweet and so nice to me and everything...

i'm feeling so down down down down down

2006-09-08T12:07:00.000+08:00

am back already!
the genting trip was nice & fun.
photos to be uploaded in the next entry.
i'm currently down with fever of 38 degrees.
i felt so weak but fuck,
he is just not there for me for the whole of last night.
holy fuck.
just hope he gets his ass here at my house soon.

oh fuck fuck!
the fever, cough, sore throat, and menses cramp are seriously killing me!

2006-09-03T00:00:00.000+08:00

will be away for 4 days as i'm off to genting & kl!
together with dear, kq & her bf.
lol.
really excited about shopping in kl.
will be back with lotsa big big bags!
meanwhile,

seriously lack of sleep.

i asked for the stupid-est face and he gave me this.
my cheeky brother.

MISS ME!

2006-08-29T14:17:00.000+08:00

been a week since i last updated.
it's only been a week but so much things had happened.

BACKTRACK*

25 August 2006
had my last paper in the morning.
had only 4 hours of sleep in 2 days and it was like hell for me.
went Bugis, met up with kq and her bf.
caught Snakes On a Plane there.

that show is darn gross with all the snakes and stuffs.
but overall, it's kinda nice.
headed home straight after the show and off to bed i went.

26 August 2006
joyce birthday celebration.
everyone was all dressed up, i guess, but that day turned out to be sucha disappointment.
went Orchard Party World in the evening all the way till 10pm.
dear waited for me for 5 darn hours yet he didn't complain.
but i don't know why we had to quarrel again over the topic we dread most.
so we ended up giving each other cold shoulder for the whole night.
was suppose to go to Boat Quay at night but they changed the plan at the last minute and we ended up in a ktv pub near Outram, and i find that pub darn boring please.
i think everyone was just so not in the mood that day so we left at around 1am and headed to Geylang and to think we were that unlucky to met one drunkard who's like abit sick in the mind.
that night was like the worst birthday celebration we had.
sigh.
reached home at 3.30am, was dead beat and just removed my make-up and went off to bed.

sememster break no longer excite me.
hmmm...

2006-08-23T23:43:00.000+08:00

will be having e-commerce paper tomorrow.
i swear it's so gonna kill me.
there's so much to study in the lecture notes.
and i can't seems to understand a single thing.
i almost broke down just now in the midst of revising.
but,
anyway, 2 more paper to go and i'm done.
i want to just get it over and done with soon!

2006-08-21T23:06:00.000+08:00

went Bugis again today to get the top that i bought last friday exchanged.
got it exchanged for a dress,
yes, the kind i always wanted.
and i finally got that pair of M)phosis slip ons,
after such a long time.
wanted to get that Nike shirt for dear but the size was too large.
then met him at Chinese Garden and headed home.
he was too tired from work and his mahjong session,
all because he was on the phone with me till 3am last night.
LOL
so he fell asleep when we reached home.
hmm,
yeah and lastly,

it's our 4th month together again!

2006-08-19T12:03:00.000+08:00

BACKTRACK *

17 August 2006
brought little Enen out to play again.
spent like 2 hours at the playgroup with Enen.
LOL
then she got so tired and start dozing off while i was carrying her.
hmm,
and something happened at night and made me really disappointed & upset.
shall not mention it over here.
sigh.

18 August 2006
had my scm paper.
i screwed the whole paper completely.
i didn't study for the module at all,
due to what happen a few days ago...
and the only thing i was familiar with was the calculations part.
i think i only did 1/3 of the paper, and for the rest of the paper i was practically scribbling rubbish on it.
sigh again.
went home to bathe and all then went to meet up with Amanda at Bugis.
retail therapy works best for me whenever i'm feeling down.
got a top from there and was darn disappointed again when i didn't manage to get my M)phosis slip ons.
then went to Tiong Bahru Plaza and we slacked there all night.
sigh again and again.

19 August 2006
finally he's responding to my msgs already.
meeting up later to go get the tickets.
but...
i wouldn't know how to react to him later on,
after so much that had happened.
i'm still feeling kinda low,
but...
well, i don't wanna screw things up again.
=)
i finally had the apetitite to eat something after surviving on Vitasoy and Milo for the whole of yesterday.

2006-08-17T00:24:00.000+08:00

went Kbox today and had our 5-hours-K-Marathon.
we sang, screamed, puffed until we almost lost our voice when we leave.
it's been so long since i last went to Kbox.
hmm,
will be having SCM paper this friday and i have not start hitting the books.
i'm just so not in the mood.
feeling darn lazy.
anyway,
waited for him to call since yesterday night and he has not call yet.
okay, fine.
i'll wait.
i have not had a proper meal for 2 days.
my head feels as if it's spinning.
don't know why but i just don't feel like having anything.

hmm,
joyce's birthday is coming in 2 weeks time.
will be going to Party World then ktv-pub at night.
i'm hoping they will not go to Shin 8.
anyhows, i'm definitely looking forward to that day!
can't wait!
LOL

2006-08-15T23:36:00.000+08:00

the only way not to cry,
is to stop looking at things that made you cry.

i don't understand why does he have to mention something to make me so angry and spoil the day everytime when everything is so perfectly fine.
forget it.
shall be off to bed now.
update another day.

2006-08-14T01:25:00.000+08:00

i just deleted some of my archives.
reason being i don't wanna keep those memories anymore.
i felt so disgusted just by reading them.
especially when i thought of the things he did and the way he tried to hide himself yesterday.
not that i wish we can have a small conversation.
but it was really really goddarn sick!
i swear never in my life will i want to meet another guy as lousy as him, the biggest liar ever.
hmm,
ok enough said.

went Holland V for lunch today.
and headed home with dear after that.
boring weekend!
BOO!

2006-08-12T23:53:00.000+08:00

yay, finally i get to see the fireworks.
he brought me to Marina South today.
the fireworks were so nice, so so so nice.
but today is kinda different cause' we went along with little Enen!
brought her together to see the fireworks.
she's really really cute can?!
and dear tried to make her talk but failed.
LOL

me and the little one.

we spent almost 3 hours in the arcade today.
watching him gaming away.
and my arms are aching because i carried her all the way when we walked to the park.
tsk.

oh,
to think i bump into my ex over there.
and we actually cross each other's path.
it was like what-the-fuck?
after such a long time, i finally met him with her on the streets.

2006-08-11T00:57:00.000+08:00

i'm quite happy with my glm paper today.
LOL
will be having qmgt paper tomorrow but i have yet to start my revision.

back from Esplanade on National Day.

it was such a disappointment.
but nevermind,
he's bringing me to Marina South on saturday.
=)

2006-08-10T00:36:00.000+08:00

i know alot of my friends are not encouraging me to do this.
but i just wanna stick to my stand.
i wanna believe in what i have.
i may regret it one day.
but who knows he might just bring me what i want.
afterall, the future is unpredictable.

when the whole world does not support my stand, i hope you are the only one who stays true.

2006-08-09T00:28:00.000+08:00

i'm having good hair day today.

the above 2 pictures were taken more than a year ago.
old photos do bring back unwanted memories.
it was taken when i was on my way to Bukit Panjang Plaza.
so much for those memories.
damn.

me & Amanda during x'mas @ 2005.

again.
unwanted memories.
it feels like i'd wasted 10 months of my life.
it's so not worth it.
urghhhhh.
all these guys are rotten!

ps: photobucket is always having never-ending server problems, thus the broken links of some pictures.

2006-08-08T00:05:00.000+08:00

was browsing through my phone just now while dear was mahjong-ing.
found some random pix and decided to upload them.

a year ago...

dinner at Harbourfront's Pastamania after some beach fun!

best poly-mates!

random!

my bitchy-est bitch!

dear got me so angry for nothing just now.
called him so many times on the handphone but he didn't pick up even once.
then he told me over the msn that he left the phone in his car.
DUH!

2006-08-06T00:11:00.000+08:00

long time since i last updated.
but life has been pretty much the same for me.
the only thing that excite me is the coming 1 week study break that spells exams.
LOL

BACKTRACK *

caught 2 movies over the past week.
Tokyo Drift and Dragon Tiger Gate.

this show is the best!
it's super nice definitely worth the time & money.

LOL
dear says it's a waste of money to watch this.
and i thought so too.
but certain parts of the show was rather hilarious.

hmm
went to dye my hair again.
i thought this new hair colour looks better?
i find it rather dark though.

i grabbed this pic from yiling's friendster.

hmm
basically that's about it for the past week.
ya, we completed 2 more puzzles.
LOL
i'm so looking forward to the September term break.
will be away with dear!

2006-07-27T23:43:00.000+08:00

it suck whenever he has to hang up on me just like that.

forget it.
i'm so pms-sy today.
fuck it.

2006-07-23T22:54:00.000+08:00

dear has been extremely nice these few days.
LOL
went Bugis yesterday and guess what?
he bought me a 1000-piece mickey mouse jigsaw.
love it can?!
but what makes me even happier is he actually spend the whole of last night trying to complete it.
LOL
and yup!
i completed the last few pieces with him and it's done now.
had it framed up and now its in my room.
i'm sucha happy girl!

completed.

see that smile?

random photos *

dark circles!

eyebags!

2006-07-22T13:42:00.000+08:00

BACKTRACK *

18 june 2006, tuesday.
we argued over the silliest thing, i think.
went for eyebrow threading at Clementi and it turns out pretty good!
then went for the SK II interview at Novena.
i ain't carrying much hope that they will call.
LOL
went to slack around Orchard with amanda.
can't believe we actually slack there from 3pm to 9pm.
ya and of course, she is the best shopping khaki i ever had.
=)

19 june 2006, wednesday.
i witnessed something which i wish i wasn't there at all.
they are just gonna make me hate them more.
i seriously hope bad karma falls on them real soon!
=)

20 june 2006, thurday.
went IKEA with dear but didn't manage to get anything there.
was feeling too tired and don't feel like going anywhere so we headed home.
hmmm

21 june 2006, friday.
skipped school again and realised that i'm having GLM test.
oh well, what to do?
anyway, went Suntec but as usual, it's so boring to go shopping when you don't have much cash left with you so we left kinda early.
had lunch+dinner at Kallang.
we intended to head to Bugis but damn, it was raining then so we headed home instead.
was feeling darn tired & sleepy yesterday after days and days of insufficient sleep.

me & xuan after our tobacco break.

argh!
there's still so much work that's left undone.
and i've yet to receive any new from SK II.
please please!!!
i really want that job!

OH YAY!
it's the 22nd of the month again.

happy 3 months baby!
i'm happy.

2006-07-17T22:17:00.000+08:00

i think i seriously had enough of his friends.
i'd given my best and don't think i deserve their nasty comments.
i couldn't be bothered anymore.
if they thought they hated me to the core then so be it.
i don't need them anyway.
i know i'd been very nice & tolerant towards them already.
if they can't stop their comments about me then very fine.
i believe bad karma will fall upon them someday.
(:
why frown over such shallow people?
God shall deal with them.

2006-07-16T21:57:00.000+08:00

it's been quite a boring weekend though.
another project down, & leaving me with another 3 more to go!
sigh.

anyway, went Bugis with dear yesterday.
and i actually went home empty-handed despite the sale TOPSHOP was having.
another sigh.

hmmm
was at home with dear for the whole afternoon till now.
i think we were both too tired to go anywhere today.
LOL
but guess what?!
him- being the laziest man on earth, actually made campbell soup for me!
was super happy can?!
it's the first time he ever made something for me to eat.
(:

must admit that he can be really sweet at times.
but must say that sometimes he really drives me up the wall too.

random photos *

those eyebags are evidence for insufficient sleep.

the victory sign.

before heading to Chinatown with amanda.

my loves in class! xuan & yiling.

he is so into his games.

the PCD. my desktop. hot?

2006-07-15T13:59:00.000+08:00

The Pussycat Dolls - Buttons

i'm sooooo addicted to this!
so hot!
so sexy!
i like!

2006-07-14T01:06:00.000+08:00

i think i'm suffocating.
never-ending assignments, tutorials, quizes, projects...
shit.
i'm just plain lazy.
LOL
my attendance is getting worse and worse.
skipped today's afternoon lesson and...

caught Pirates of the Caribbean with dear.
LOL
the show is damn hilarious can?!
=)
nice show and it's definitely worth watching!

hmmmmm
he's especially nice these few days.
i'm happy!
*smiles

2006-07-09T22:44:00.000+08:00

went to watch Superman Returns together with dear & the 2 guys.
he was supposed to spend today with me alone but goddamned it...
sigh.
forget it.

hmm
maybe this is the way things should be and i should learn to accept the way things are.
since i can't force him to make a decision, and i don't wanna see him being sandwiched in between.
maybe this is what i should do:-
to accept the way things are

afterall, a relationship is all about give & take & trust.

i feels so happy & so loved whenever i have only the both of us together.
but everytime there will be some dickheads who are out to ruin my day but fuck, who cares?

anyway, dear tidied my bed for me this afternoon.
LOL
alrights,
i should be off to bed soon!

loves loves*

2006-07-06T19:57:00.000+08:00

that's when i love you.

the stayover at dear's house.

i was with dear for the whole of these 2 days.
how i wish everyday can be like that but i know that's not possible.
but anyway, i'm just can't be happier to have him with me.
=)

2006-07-04T23:16:00.000+08:00

I LOVE THIS!

dear bought this for me!
bluey for him and pink for me!

LOL
my mom keep nagging me & saying that i should stop behaving like a spoilt brat infront of dear and i should stop being so stubborn because not everything MUST go my way.
i think my mom is soooo right about me.
hmm

=D
he's not working on thursday and that means he will have time for me for the whole of thursday!
laughs*

2006-07-03T23:12:00.000+08:00

is there really something seriously wrong with me?
i should have thought so.
since my mom agreed as well.

i know i'm stubborn and all but i just can't help it.
i didn't want to vent my frustrations and throw tantrum at him.
but i just can't help it!!!

it's been 2 days.
i'm feeling so down.

MISSED HIM*

2006-07-01T23:09:00.000+08:00

i hate to force myself to accept something i couldn't accept.
i hate the way i had to give in.
i hate people being so insensitive towards my feelings.

i seriously hate hate hate all these!

2006-06-29T22:26:00.000+08:00

i guess...
maybe that's the way things should be.
i wouldn't ask for more.
i wouldn't even dare to.
i'll just take things as it come.
maybe they were right that things ain't as bad as i thought.

me & yiling

madness in class everyday with xuanxuan & yiling.
LOL
hmm, i passed all my modules but they were all D grades.
my mom is ready to kill me.
sigh.
i've to work harder!

i love this top that i'm wearing!

hmm, i think dear is gonna be extra busy this week.
sigh.
seems like it's been quite some time since he last spent some solid time with me.

2006-06-26T23:37:00.000+08:00

couldn't sleep at all yesterday night.
was tossing and turning on my bed from 11.30pm all the way till 6am when i woke up for school.
can you imagine?!

whenever i shut my eyes and tries to sleep, those images will start floating on my mind.
then i'll open my eyes and lie on the bed wide awake again.
and the cycle goes on and on and on...
i swear it's driving me nuts.
i don't know if it's just my pure imagination but it's really frightening.
it seems so real and all...
why?
why am i having such thoughts?
why am i having such images on my mind?
was it my imagination?
or was it trying to hint something to me?
i don't know.
i seriously don't.

nowadays i often find myself having nightmares and suddenly waking up in tears.
just what's going on?!

i haven't been eating since yesterday morning.
thanks to the flu bug & the dry cough & the sore throat.
i vomitted everything that i eat & drink.
maybe if this goes on i can consider going on a diet.
LOL
basically, i feels like a walking zombie in school today.
and now i've lost my voice because i had been coughing and coughing like hell.

i'm feeling so restless, so tired, and so sick.
& i'm missing him so very much.
sigh.

2006-06-25T01:05:00.000+08:00

why didn't these people think before they shoot their mouth off?

i'm getting so sick of this.

afterall,
reality still hurts.
i still find bliss in ignorance...

BACKTRACK-

24 june 2006*
basically, i was having mood swing for the whole damned day.
i hate this.
seriously hate this!
anyway, it's a boring weekend and we merely went Queensway and jp and as usual, he had his mahjong session at night.
sigh.

23 june 2006*
went to town with dear.
just as expected, i went to Bebe but that diamante top was sold out.
and guess what?
MANGO is having sales!
how could i missed it?
so i ended up getting 2 tops there.
=)
he's all tired out from accompanying me doing shopping for just less than 1 hour so we just bought dinner and went home.

22 jun 2006*
and as promised, he brought me to Marina Square.
went Bebe only to find out that the diamante top that i wanted was sold out.
=(
was disappointed but i guess i'll have to wait till the GSS is over.
by the way, it's our 2nd month together.
and did i mention he didn't drive that day and we went everywhere by train!
LOL

the rest of the days were either spent at the same old place or his place.
it's the world cup period now.
that explains why he's so busy every single night.
and now he's mahjong-ing away.
sigh.

hmm,
school is starting on monday.
i can't wait!
LOL
i miss xuanxuan and yiling!

i seriously need to shed some weight. darn.

2006-06-18T23:47:00.000+08:00

had Fathers' Day's dinner and went shopping at Bugis.
bought a top there and guess what?!

my mom bought me the Guess? watch!

omg
*screams
and it's the white one!
i searched high and low for it and finally... I FOUND IT!

the box, the watch, and Edison. =)

loves LOVES

look at those eyebags. =(

i'm thinking of colouring my hair again.
hmm.

2006-06-13T00:18:00.000+08:00

simply can't understand the mentality of some people.
what's there to boast about?
apppears to be on such good terms with you this minute and then stabs you right at the back the next minute.

trust nobody.
not even your closest bud.

2006-06-07T23:31:00.000+08:00

had my last paper today and went towning with xuan and yiling.
was planning to grab that top at Bebe but found out the shop was having stock-taking session.
that was so disappointing can?!
anyway, i saw this really cute dress that can also be worn as top at MANGO but was so disappointed yet again cos' i didn't bring enough cash with me.
sigh.
in the end, i just grabbed a white top from Forever 21.

the white top from Forever 21 and the orangy headband.

told you i'd a fetish for lacey tops!
=)
i'm gonna pester dear or lovely xuanxuan & yiling to go to Marina Square with me!
but maybe some time next week?
i'm broke from all the shoppings...

2006-06-01T23:40:00.000+08:00

i doubt i gonna make any difference to my report card this semester?

i'm all stress out.
there's so many things to deal with.
be it school, work, or my personal stuffs.

bloody...
i just hope to get done with my common tests FAST!

i wanna go shopping at Marine Square!
i want that Bebe bling bling top!
i want that TOPSHOP tube top!
i want that belt from MANGO!
i want that M)phosis flats!
.
.
.
.
.
and the list goes on...

i hope it rains money tomorrow instead.
LOL

2006-05-31T23:51:00.000+08:00

common tests are here to kill.
i'm feeling the tension & stress that everyone's feeling.

sigh
i shall score well and make my report card looks nicer for this semester.
but it's so tough.
=(

anyway,
did some shopping with Zane today.
can't believe we spent almost an hour in a shop.
imagine if we shop at town?
LOL
I JUST LOVE GSS !

2006-05-30T22:27:00.000+08:00

the sky seems extremely dark tonight.

i thought we could spend the day together,
yet i threw tantrum at him again and we ended up going separate ways.
he ain't taking my calls, nor giving me calls.

i'm feeling down...

2006-05-29T22:20:00.000+08:00

went shopping with Mummy yesterday at Marina Square.
i so love shopping at there can?!
plus, the fact its GSS now is making me even more happyyyyy!
*big grins

bought a top each from Bebe and MANGO and a white shoulder bag.
saw a top at TOPSHOP and its darn nice can?
=D
i share save up from now!
i wanna shop again there!

2006-05-24T22:55:00.000+08:00

Guess?

ain't it nice?!
omg!
i combed the whole Bugis this afternoon but can't find the colour i wanted.
is it really so hard to get the white one?
=(
but it's sucha beauty ain't it?
especially the bling blings around the edge.
i heart heart this watch so much!

i love love bling blings!

i'm on tonight, my hips don't lie
and i'm starting to feel you boy
come on let's go, real slow
baby, like this is perfecto

oh, you know i am on tonight and my hips don't lie
and I am starting to feel it's right
the attraction, the tension
baby, like this is perfection

no fighting
no fighting

...
shakira shakira

2006-05-18T23:44:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling kinda emo right now.
just hang up on the phone and he's off to bed already.

i don't know.

i feels so tired physically and mentally.
because nothing seems to turn out right.
be it school, work or friends.

3 low-attendance notification letters in 2 weeks?
what the hell?!
and as far as i can remember, i was present for 2 of the modules mentioned in the letters.
...
screw the school system.

common tests are like in less than a month's time?
and i know nuts about all the modules.
...
screw me.

my job is definitely driving me crazy too.
the supervisors there are super mean and i just feel like slapping them off their asses.
and i really hate having to work every Friday after my lesson at 5pm.
it only makes me feel more like skipping my modules againnnnn.
...
SCREW WORK.

lastly, we are coming to 1 month in 4 days time.
he seems like a dream come true.
but is it for real?
i know he pampers & care for me alot, never fails to give in to me, etc.
but i'm wondering...
how long is this gonna last?
i dare not fcuking think of the future.

i don't know why i threw tantrums at him tonight.
maybe because of the stress i get from work & school that's why i kept feeling frustrated for the whole damn night.
so i kept whinning and complaining about school to him.
i think he's sick of my complaints too.
=D

...
i'm sorry i behave like a kid again.

2006-05-16T00:09:00.000+08:00

today's probably the first time he ever flare up with me.

hell,
all these guys are one of a kind.
& i swear it's driving me nuts.

everytime when i thought things had turn better,
this shit has to happen.

2006-05-01T09:11:00.000+08:00

so is it for real this time?
because it simply seems too good to be true.

2006-04-22T01:37:00.000+08:00

was all ready to go to bed but i just can't fcuking get myself to sleep after hearing some stuffs.

i don't understand.
i really, really don't.
why can't those tongues just stop wagging?
why can't they stop assuming and thought that they know oh-so-much about me & my life?
why can't they fcuking stop those disturbing & irritating comments?

they fcuking thought i am a material girl when i am so not one!

i am gonna say this for once -
i am just being realistic not materialistic.

i don't deny i love designers stuffs.
but i only buy them when i can afford it.
so why the hell do you consider that as being materialistic?
and excuse me, which girl don't fancy LV or Gucci?
that was just rubbish that you guys are talking!

tell me tell me!
how can i fcuking stop those people from gossiping?
fcuk!
was it a mistake right from the start?

i can't fcuking stand it.
they just can't stop gossiping.
always and forever talking about the things i do, and worse still, the things i didn't do.

holy fcuk!
i don't know what the hell have i done to deserve them talking behind my back.
i don't even know what have i fcuking done wrong?!

that may be just jokes they are cracking.
but there's a limit to how much i can take.
they had just fcuking cross my line.

2006-04-19T00:41:00.000+08:00

what goes around comes around

i've too much on my mind.
i don't know what to blog about.

2006-04-13T22:34:00.000+08:00

i had a new haircut on tuesday and a re-colour my hair this morning.
but it doesn't seem too much of a difference.
anyway, photos up!

i love the lightings in my room!

my new hair colour!

i know i look funny with my fringe clipped.

ps: blogger is always & forever having maintainance problem.
fcuk them for this!

2006-04-10T21:44:00.000+08:00

i don't fcuking care if others don't support my stand.
but,
why must my closest friend be doing the same thing?

i don't fcuking understand.
why didn't anyone of them thought of my feelings before they do anything?

i don't know what the hell did i do to deserve everyone doing this to me!

i'm neither a toy, nor a tool for anyone to seek fun.
i'm a human.
i have a heart that can feel.
but everyone seems to have forgotten it.

it's perfectly fine to joke and play around with me.
BUT,
don't fcuking cross the line and overdo it.

and as if all that had happened wasn't enough,
they had to keep digging on my wound.
just what the fcuk do they think they are doing?!

fcuk.
i'm feeling really lousy.
i think i need some fcuking time to cool down.

2006-04-09T00:18:00.000+08:00

i'm like in a super lousy mood now.
fcuk.

there are just some things that i can never figure out why.
everything is in a mess.
everything!

2006-04-07T23:50:00.000+08:00

i deleted some posts from my blog.

i just realised some people had been stalking my blog.

from now on, i WILL NOT blog about any of my personal stuffs.

=)
GOODBYE STALKERS!

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anyway,
i'm used to people being insensitive towards my feelings.
so this time will be no exception too.

whatever it is,
there is just no reason why i should be happy now.

2006-03-23T22:09:00.000+08:00

okay.
finally the photos are ready.
we didn't really take alot of photos.
because we fell asleep while drinking.
LOL

. the act cute time

. lotsa cam-whoring in the room

. when we're getting bored

. we played with our hair

it was a bad hair day.

this was our supper.
i swear i ate fcuking lots that day.
and i was super guilty.
=(

the room is fcuking cold can?

i'm without make-up.
and my brows ain't growing!
=(

i love their Heineken & Carlsberg!
smells totally different from those can ones.
it's really really nice!

hmm,
yup.
that's basically all.
that was the day i drank & smoke alot.
LOL

anyway,
weiming fetch me to my interview today.
and yup!
i've got a job!
LOL
product training next week.
well, kinda looking forward to this job.
=)
hope everything goes well for me.

2006-03-22T00:42:00.000+08:00

holy fcuk!
why is Adriano out?!
shyt.
and who says he can't sing?!
fcuk campus superstar.
i ain't gonna watch it without Adriano in it.

urgh!
i'm tired.
but i'm very very happy!
with people driving me around everyday!
LOL
anyway,
photos up tomorrow.
too lazy to upload & resize them.
had been out for the whole damned day.
& interview on thursday at Novena Square.

*super elated!

2006-03-19T23:11:00.001+08:00

i'm back from my trip!
LOL
had our fun there.
a pity we couldn't stay for long.
anyway, photos will be uploaded soon.
=)

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.
.
.
.
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adam chen.

ain't he cool?!
*grins

2006-03-17T23:12:00.000+08:00

went to town with again.
i think nowadays we just love to slack there.
LOL
at the 7-11 behind FEP.
sucha nice place.

* photos up *

anyway, we reached town kinda late so we only shopped for awhile?
yup.
then ah Jon came to join us at 7-11.
and of course, he had to send us home!
LOL
i sooooo love his car can?!
especially his lovely Minnie & Mickey cushion.
=)

hmm, i'll be out of town with Joyce for a day.
shall be back with lotsa pictures on sunday!
LOL
i'm so looking forward to tomorrow okay?!

*super elated!

2006-03-16T01:00:00.000+08:00

was browsing through friendster and i stumbled upon some things.

okay, listen!

i swear that i'm gonna find someone fcuking tonnes better than you.
i'm so gonna show the world i can live on even without you.

yes.
that's how i survive for the past 3 months plus.
i realised it's not gonna take me anywhere if i were to keep holding on to the past.
and yes!
now i will hold up my head high and tell everyone that i've stop thinking about you.

=)
i'm happy HAPPY with my life!

and i'm happy HAPPY today!
because of a phone call.
LOL
yes.
just one damned phone call.
ommigggooodddddd ! ! !

2006-03-14T18:08:00.000+08:00

i realised i had been sucha lousy person to him all along.
should have known earlier that he was trying to tell me something.
he said i'm a person who don't know how to appreciate people who treats me nice.
he said that to me a few weeks back.
and i didn't give it much thoughts at that time.
but now i understands why he told me that.

holy fcuk.

i feels so wierd ever since he stops calling me, sms-ing me, meeting me and all.
why?
i don't fcuking know why i'm feeling this way.
i feels something is missing and this just shouldn't be the way.

and come to think of it,
i haven't been treating him nice at all.
i'm always throwing tantrums at him,
blaming him for this and that.
but nevertheless,
he tolerated the every single thing that i did.
never had he complained or screamed at me for once.

i don't know how to describe this kinda feeling.
but well,
i believe it will go away after some time.
afterall, i might just be a normal passerby in his life.

2006-03-10T23:23:00.000+08:00

went to town today.
and ya know what?!
retail jobs are so hard to find!
sigh.
how?!

but we had lotsa fun today.
LOL
did some really silly stuffs.
*evil smile

* photos up *

we are on the train.

yes.
i'm a photo freak.
=)

anyway,
we witness some minor accidents just now.
but it was really sad.
especially the car owner.
don't understand why some people can be so selfish.
then the police came.
but did nothing much about it.
how sad can that be.

2006-03-09T22:46:00.000+08:00

you know what?
i feel i love younger guys more.
LOL
so fcuking cute!

machi didi then.

machi didi now.

i know he looks kinda funny in here.
but he's really cute can?!
saw him on some Taiwan shows today.
ommigoddddd!

i want a boyfriend like him!

*drools
LOL

* * * * * * * * * * * * * *

guys are the wierderest creature alive.

they treat you like dirt and take you for granted while both are still together.
and then when we break off, they realise they want you back again without knowing that we girls don't need them anymore.

why?
tell me why?!

i guess we will only learn how to cherish & love someone when we lose them.
ain't it true?

2006-03-08T23:47:00.000+08:00

went Causeway Point today and we brought our cutie pie along!
realised it's so tiring to bring small kids out.
LOL
but it had been fun.
because she's so cute!

* photos up *

enen on the merry-go-round.

on our way home.

us with lil` enen.

she looks so sweet don't she?
awwww~

* * * * * * * * * * * * * *

random pictures of me.

i love this!

notice i painted my nails yellow?
LOL
actually i painted them yellow and pink.
i like!

i think i gonna look for a job soon.
am running out of cash because we had been slacking at Coffeebean and lazing around so often.
=(

hmm,
passed by his house just now.
i... don't know what i had been thinking.

2006-03-07T22:42:00.000+08:00

ADRIANO.

he's so duper cute, ain't he?!

i so so so LOVE cute guys!
*smiles

hmm, i'm still thinking if i should cut my fringe?
feel like keep shorter fringe.
how?!
and so many complaints about my hair color.
well, who cares?
i'm happy with it.
=)

2006-03-05T02:21:00.000+08:00

i know i still cannot find another one who can makes me feel like how you do.

i wants you back so much.

but it's so not possible again.

i really don't want anyone else but you.